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01 October 2010
Course Corrections
Tomorrow at 4:30 am, I will leave the dark, quiet hotel parking lot for the bus. 9,000 other runners will make this same journey, exactly 26.2 miles up the canyon. It is really quite the spectacle, a race between strangers where an unspoken camaraderie and kinship is palpable in the air. We all know what it has taken for each of us to reach the starting line. Saturday morning long runs at 6:00 am…the dark, the heat, the cold; it is possibly insane that we push ourselves to cover a distance that seems longer than necessary. I have always thought 20 is a nice round number; if only Phidippides could have gone 20 miles instead of 26, but that is another story.

This will be the 4th consecutive trip I will make to this same destination. In the spirit of transparency, I have to say I almost quit. I cringe as I type the word “quit” as this strange word is not in my vocabulary. With an ankle injury that won’t quite heal, an extremely demanding work schedule, and the priorities any mother of 3 should have, itwas just harder this time for some reason. So I have done much of my training late at night in Provo Canyon (which by the way is good for speed workouts because the bats are out and you will run faster with bats chasing you)! But about 9 weeks ago I decided I would pull out this year.
One of my favorite people posted a great quote by Dale Carnegie on their blog. Looking back I am certain it was posted for me at the moment I needed it most. The quote read “Success in business, as in life, consists not only in the ability to persevere but the humble willingness to start over." For some reason this really impacted me and I thought about it for days. I realized this is exactly what I would do. Mentally start over.
It has been a really tough time for many people I know. It is no big secret that the profession I love, mortgage banking and real estate have gone through a very challenging 3 year period. Many good people I know have left the business or are now working for different companies. Mid-life course corrections that none of us wanted or could have dreamt of 5 years ago. For me, I have known I have to make a decision daily to persevere, live with abundance and be grateful for the opportunities and blessings which I receive every day. Maybe there is something else, part of our divine plan that we would have never been able to receive if that course correction didn’t come. Maybe it was good for some of us to be humbled. It was for me.
So, this week I will go through all my pre-race rituals I love. Driving to St. George with my daughters, pining on my race number and eating pancakes with my family after marathon glory. I can’t fathom now what I would be feeling if I would have quit. So, I will be at the starting line on Saturday and at mile 16 at Snow Canyon when the sunrise is upon me and the other 9000 crazies, I will feel blessed to have been able to start over and grateful to be with my comrades. Although I will not run my fastest time, and I will not qualify for Boston as I had hoped, I have been humbled. I feel like this one might be the most special because I discovered more of myself along the way. I know I am capable of all things; I will start, and I will finish.
Be well, stay strong.











